Distracted

It was 4 years ago this week that we admitted Griffin to the hospital for the last time. I am trying to focus, yet find myself so distracted. Suprisingly I made it through Christmas with out crying. I wasn't until the 27th where i lost my mind, I was so consumed with emotions. I cried and cried. Yesterday, I cried. I even cried at work today. I am just ready for Jan 4th to be here and over. Ready for that 4 year mark to come and be gone. The problem, is that I just miss him. I miss being Griffin's mom. I miss his laugh, his toothless grin, him asking for eggo waffles 4 times a day. I miss it all.

13.1 miles I did it!

Halloween Update

So, I'm going to try to be better about Blogging. I can't believe it's Halloween. Sydney is Alice in Wonderland, she loves absoutely perfect as Alice. And if you call her Alice (while in costume) she quickly correct you, "No not Alice, Alice in Wonderland!" Sometimes I just look at her and can't believe she's my girl. Blake has 2 costumes depending on his mood. He recently pick up a gold/black ninja costume with an awesome ninja sword (we lost the sword at the Boo at the Zoo). Also, he has his zombie doctor costume from last year (we couldn't seem to find the doctor coat, so it's bacially scrubs (with guts and blood) plus we put blood in his hair and on his face! It's pretty cool.

The kids have already had Halloween overload! (The story of my life...trying to plan as many events as humanly possible) We've been to the Arboretum Pumpkin patch 3 times! We went to the YMCA halloween party, Trick or Treating at the Arboretum, Trick or Treating at the Heard Museum with the Dinosaurs (that was awesome!), the Boo at the Zoo, our grief group party and all before Halloween!

Today, is actually Halloween, the kids ate donuts for breakfast (per my promise to my grandma to feed them donuts and hotdogs today (like we used to)) I'm picking them up early and bringing them back to my office to trick or treat and then we will trick or treat around the neighborhood!!

I'm sure we'll have candy for months!

I'm in final count down for the marathon, I'll update on that later. I have a big Pasta Party tomorrow night, Barry and I stay in the hotel, And the kids will come meet us to cheer me on Sunday morning. Be thinking of me!
-Mo

Race Day Jitters!!!

Okay, so I keep on telling myself NOT to freak out. I spent a couple days last week crying about the marathon. Come to find out, it is very normal, especially for your first race. The true problem I am having is....TIME...I have no doubt that I can walk 13.1 miles (honestly it's not THAT far). The problem comes that the race has a 4 hour time limit (granted my coach checked and said not to worry that people finished later then that last year) Anyways, my freak out comes that the whole season, i've been walking a 20 mile (can't seem to get my legs to go faster)so, that means assuming I can keep up the pace, I can walk 12 miles in 4 hours, not 13.1!!!! SUCKS!!! I'm not an athlete, I'm not walking for my chip timing, I do however, want to finish, before they are tearing everything down..this leaves me sad, felling like I've set myself up to fail. And failing is something I struggle with. I can't handle that NOT good enough feeling.

Anyways, I know I will do it! I know I can! I just don't want everyone to have to wait for the lone Fat girl walking in last.
Lesson learned though, next time around, I am going to sign up for a race that has both a 1/2 marathon and a full, that way i have like 8 hours to go 13.1 miles!! Much better plan.

Light the Night

Yes, I've become the worst Blogger! It hasn't been intentional. Honest. I've been busy with work, the kids, and trying to get all my walking in. Plus, the new TV season is on. This has left me with No Blogging time.

Anyways, last night, we walked as a family (plus our babysitter and husband) in the Light The Night walk. As a family, we walked, with 2 gold balloons (one for Griffin, one my mom) and two red balloons. We walked 2 miles, Sydney ran pretty much the whole way,except when she was jumping ofer the crack in the street or walking backwards. It was a great night. In less than two weeks I walk alone, my 13.1 miles for my mom and Griffin! (Okay, not literally alone, it's the Dallas 1/2 marathon, i'm sure there will be tons of people.) I had been training with my friend, who was walking with me, but she backed out :( Luckily, I still have my coach, mentor, and fellow teammates.

I'm excited and nervous. Can I make it? My coach tells me not to worry, that I'll be fine, I've been training. I remember when 3 miles was hard, now I consistanly walk 8! Yep, me! Walking 8 miles. But 13.1 is far. I've looked at the course and it's intimidating! I can do it! (right?)

Almost 1/2 way there...Slacking at Blogging

First: Sorry for slacking at Blogging!! Life has been busy, vacation was wonderful, summer is almost over, it's tooo darn hot in Texas!! Anyways, I haven't made it a point to get online and blog.

On the walking stuff! I'm kicking butt!! Last Saturday August 2nd, I woke up and was out of the house by 5:30 am. My friend, WinterFawn and I walked 6 miles!!! That's almost 1/2 way there for our marathon training!! I was so proud of us! I remember just months ago being terrified at the 3 miles I was going to be walking, thinking how impossible 6 would be, but it wasn't! It felt great! Honestly, this Team in Training has been the best thing for me. Coming home from vacation, I was slacking...it was hard to get motivated to be out in this horrible Texas heat (yes we've had tripple digits 17 of the last 18 days. The first week back I couldn't get myself motivated to get outside and move. It took me a while but last week, I was back on track, In the last week, I have walked 23 miles!

Work is crazy right now, I got a promotion and start next Monday! I'm thrilled! So, this week is crazy with trying to get things wrapped up and turned over.

Heidi and her boys fly into town on Friday! Yay! We are driving down to Schlitterbahn and I can't wait!! Nothing like spending the weekend at the water park.

I will upload all our vacation pictures some where soon, so you can see them.

-MO

Finally...I have a 7 year old!

Hooray! Blake turned 7, last Thursday June 19th. I can't tell you how good it felt to have Blake turn 7. Honestly leading up to his Birthday I had been worried it would be difficult for me, to have Blake pass up Griffin's age. I wasn't sure how my emotions would be.
On Wednesday we had Blake's best friend Matthew stay over. I had pre-scheduled the day off, we had plans to take Syd to daycare and hit the pool! Grab the best chocolate cake from costco and Blake's favorite chinese food for dinner. Unfortunately, the day didn't go as planned, when poor little Sydney woke up with the stomach flu! She was throwing up like crazy.... more to follow, i have to go get Blake and drop him off at cubscout camp!